Yes the heading is right - as long as there is no new growth anywhere, I am finished with chemo. I have to have radiation but that is supposed to be a walk in the park compared to a double stem cell transplant! The timing is good as I am totally sick of it all. I feel like I can barely remember what it is like to feel well. The past few days I have felt miserable and sorry for myself, wishing there was some way to take a break from chemo side effects! But unfortuntely once the poison is in my veins there is no cure but time. I am improving, although I am still plagued by tummy troubles and my cold so Kerry has changed my release date to next week - hopefully early in the week.
On Tuesday I had a lovely day. Cam, Tiernan, Arielle, mum and Nat all came in to visit and it was just wonderful. It really lifted my spirits. Yesterday I had a lovely visit with Cam and Tiernan. Tiernan and I had a lovely cuddle in bed for ages. We were looking at photos on a digital photo frame that Nat bought me. Tiernan would name the people he saw in the photos. There was a photo of him as a baby and I was holding him. He said to me "Oh baby Tiernan and who is that?". It took me a minute to realise that I had long hair in the photo and Tiernan had just turned 2 the last time I had hair so it was probably reasonable that he did not know who it was! He talked to me a lot about when I was coming home and when I would be better. Those conversations always break my heart - it is so much for a 3 year old to understand.
This morning I woke up to Cam rubbing my hand! It was a lovely surprise. I had woken up earlier and had breakfast and then felt miserable so climbed under the covers and went back to sleep. I did not know that Cam was coming in so it was a lovely way to wake up from my snooze!
The weather in Brisbane is freezing at the moment and I don't think the hospital a/c has got it right because I am freezing in my room. Part of the problem is my lack of hair as my head is freezing more than anything else on my body. The ward has lovely warm blankets and I am constantly wrapping them around me!